Long time ago

Since my ex boyfriend started to talk to me again, I remembered a poem I read when we broke up. It's in Dutch and I'de like to share with you. Even though it's such a long time ago, I can still feel the sadness in this poem. It remembers me of darkness, but even more I appreciate the happines ot these days.

Dat ik verder ga,
wil nog niet zeggen dat ik vergeten ben.
Het wil alleen zeggen dat ik het accepteer,
en dat het beetje bij beetje went.
Als je me ziet lachen,
wil dat niet zeggen dat ik me beter voel alleen.
Het wil alleen zeggen dat het leven verder is gegaan,
sinds de dag dat jij eruit verdween.
Als ik weer verliefd wordt,
wil dat niet zeggen dat jij verdwijnt uit mijn hart.
Het wil alleen zeggen dat hij erbij komt,
en dat er voor mij een nieuwe periode start.
En als je me ziet lopen, en het raakt je diep.
Vergeet dan vooral niet dat het jouw keus was.
Dat het dankzij jou was dat het gelopen is zoals het liep..

Friend

Hello friend, sister, soulmate.
Sometimes I forget what you mean to me.
I say things I shouldn't say and I don't say things should say.
Like how much you mean to me.
Sometimes when you're not around when I need you.
I forget that you're always here, you're in me, in my heart.
I even guess you're a little piece of me.

much feelings

You'de better leave me alone, stupid guys. I just don't get what all of you want from me. It's like you all want to confuse me, to play a game with me. Or do you really care? I don't know, but I guess I'm better off without each of you. I mean, you, my ex. What's wrong with you? Both of us know that it isn't over, even after a year there's still something. What's wrong with you to bring those feelings back. What's wrong with you to hurt that fucking girl like you did to me? Why do you tell me we shouldn't have broken up? Isn't that to late? You should've told me early, not now. Please, leave me alone. And than, there's you, the new boy. The boy who gives me tingles, without even knowing it. The boy that makes me so shy, with his cute smile. The one who sometimes give me the idea he likes me for real, and the next moment he's gone again. What do you want from me? I could go on with these kind of boys for hours, but that's just a waste of time. So, just shut up. I don't need you, ok?

Party

Party till the morning has come,
Drinking until I feel so far gone.
It's the most wonderfull feeling in world, just going and going.
No thoughts or tears, I smell the sweat and smoke. 
Why not party all day and night?

You make me feel

You make me feel like a woman,
Sensual, beautifull but most of al very unique.
Please go on, making me feel this great woman.